n9 membawa seribu k e t e n a n g a n :)

mulenye ak ta na ekowt tp ole sbab ade sbab2 y mmg ak pelukan ketenangan, so ak pon itowt la :) btw, ak syuko psl ak itowt :) cz mmg ak rase tenang sikit :) story setat pada 27 n 28 nov, haha> g k pilah la plak > ta engat last tyme ak g ngeri neyh> kalu adk sdare ak ta khatan kat cineyh ak ta jejak kowt kat ngri neyh :)
kol 4.30 chck-in otel > desa inn ~ dekat gak r nan kg sdare ak :) ta ya penin2 nak cari uma dye naty :) otel to major sume sdare ak y konker :) gilak bapak r bsg :) uat cam uma sendiwi lak ~ oyt> otel ney :) huhu> malam to g uma sdare :) sesat la plak > hakahkak> kg sdare ak kat Dioh Kecil p ktowg g Dioh Besar~ da r mlm2> owg g kg ktowg g kubo > hakhak ~ mmg klaka abez r> da r ta dpt tgk cterw Nur Kasih~ oyt last epysod to :( pape lah > n then sok neyrw g tgk adk sdare ak khatan > hakhak < he crying lowh :) abez kene bahan gan ak :) ramai kowt y khatan tmasok dye aderw 6 owg sumenye :) lupe lak ak sempat chit-chat gan akak sepupu ak :) wowow> bawu ak taw dye dulo skul teknik :) kirew dok ostel gak r > ta ku sangka :) n then y ak agk sdey , dowg sume bawu taw y ak skul kat gopeng :( bapak cedey r > bole plak ty ak 'cmne dok mrsm?' ak pon gan ke 'blur' an ak jwb 'ble plak te dok mrsm ?' 
so sad :( ye la dowg sume engat ak bese2 jep > amek kow tekejut beruk bile taw ak kat boarding skul :)
ta kesa la sedara, bia ak prove dulo la yang ak boley uat :) sume ney juz 4 ma pewen :)

neyh rentetan sepanjang ak kat n9 :) =

 

 

p/s : ak cayunk sumerw :) ♥

kisah kau dan aku ~

kan bagus kalo ak gan kow ta de kisah > so ak ta payah nak kesa kat sape2 :) kan bagos? senang idop ak> lpang aty aku :) pagi tadi ak g kkb nan mom ak n mase on da way tibe2 lak lagu khafi muncul > feeling baek punye :) tibe2 bile ak nyanyi skali> lirik dye bawu ak pasan ~ y macam kene kat baang idong kow jep ? kan? tp lirik last to patot di ubah > sendiwi paam la weyh >

Teringat kisah ku di malam itu
Sejak bertemu ku rindu selalu
Tak dapat aku melupakan oh wajah mu
Telah menjadi lukisan di hati ku
Bagaikan burung yang terbang berkicauan
Riang hati ku kau jadi kekasih
Tak ingin aku akan perpisahan
Hidup ku ria tiada mengenal sedih
Tiada ku sangka mendungkan menjelma
Datang menggelapkan sinaran hidup ku
Belum puas ku merasakan hangatnya
Dingin terasa di seluruh tubuh ku
Masa berlalu kini kau telah berjaya
Malangnya aku telah kau lupakan
Tiada ku sangka begini jadinya
Kan ku hadapi sebagai satu cabaran
Waktu ku sepi ada yang hampiri
Memberi kasihnya sebagai pengganti
Telah ku lupa segala sakit di hati
Tetapi kini engkau ingin kembali
Tak mungkin aku akan menerima mu
Dan melukakan hati kekasih ku
Lupakan saja apa yang berlaku

 Jadikan ini satu kisah hidup mu

y ak highlight to> patot to y kow uat la bodo > haha wat eva la, ta kesa ape2 pown> ak ta rugi, kow pon ta untung ~ isnt it ?

ya kow kene admit > ak ta taw asl ak kene ckp psl kow > adoy2 > wat semak lam blog ak jep ~ tape2 ney last entry psl kow> psne no more space 4 u , bongek !

to y ak akn uat ~

ak akn uat ~ sumpa ak akn uat. bangang abez r. asl la kow nak menyemak kat lam idop ak > sgt2 bongek weyh kow gan kow pye awek boley blah x dari ma life > adoisy.. patot la ak ta senang dudok. ade bala besa rupanya. wat eva la > klu da syg to mcm2 ley kow ckp> kow igt gan ckp sowy da cukop? sini bia ak plak y uat kow cam y kow uat ak? bawu kow taw dat is really hurt> adoy22 >
ary to> kow ckp ' i'll neva leave u '
skunk ak ckp > ' g mampos r kowng '

so what da HELL ? 
ary neyh kow suka2 jep uat cmto? ape kow ta pk ke?
weyh tolon r ckop r 3 kali>
ta kan ade kali ke - 4 lg>
titik.

ya > its h u r t ~

its really hurt> afte 2 years weyh> lame kowt 2taon> but 2months stil ta cukop tok kow lupekn dye rite? so why u must lie? juz said dat u still lap her> asl still na ckp ayt jiwang karat weyh? kow igt ape drama ka?

adoyai> kowng ney pandai tol> pakat sato geng konon nak yakinkan ak la> btw, u know dat u r weak, totally weak coz cnt say no to ur ex > wat eva > 

wat only dat i can do is only :

hope u will not appear in ma life again !

im very stupid coz tink bout u, worried bout u, n even care bout u .

wat da SHIT ?

stupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupidstupido !

 

i try my b e s t ~

i try my best~ to be a good listener> 
ak cuba y terbaek tok jadi s a h a b a t yg terbaek> but, act ak mao ucap tengs pada kowunk sume cz cy kat ak tok share prob :) ak cam ta caya y kowg believe on me n every words dat i said, u guys take note on it >  im really appreciate it :)
tengs manyak-manyak ya dude>
ak cayunk kowg y respects gal :) n tenqiu again coz believe on me :)

maybe its d e d i c a t e d to me :)

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

nostalgia l a m a :)

Luhur

Artist: Kamikaze 

Singkap kembali detik akhir bersama
Linangan airmataku menitis
Dalam pelukan dakapan yang terakhir
Mengalir darah membasahi bumi
Pergi yang tak kembali untuk selamanya
Segar indah namamu di hatiku

Perjuanganmu bagai lilin membakar
Bersinar menerangi kegelapan
Rela berkorban meredah onak berduri
Jasa baktimu sejernih air di kali
Bersemadilah engkau aman di pusara
Sinar cahaya murni keramatmu
Berjihad biar menitis oh darah terakhir
Menjadi lambang cinta yang terluhur

Sayu dan pilu bermain di jiwaku
Hilang mu kini tiada pengganti
Hanya namamu tersemat di kalbuku
Menjadi satu kenangan abadi

Menjadi satu kenangan yang abadi

she is ma dormates :)

 

dats it> my dormates :) kami masok skul sbpi gopeng pada tanggal y sama n dom y same :) n katil y sebelah-menyebelah :)  tarikh 10 februari 2009 : titik pertemuan kami :) dye dak penang n ak dak clango n dpt lak skul kart perak :)  na taw name dye? name dye : noor anis nabila binti hamzah :

ceh, ak hafal lowh:) but ak gan dye blainan kelas:) wat eva is : she is ma partner gossip:) every nite klu de ctew bawu, op coz kami akn begosip :) tapi slalo ak y byk cterw n dye tukang dengar :) unfair rite:)

wat eva is : tengs gal jd dormates y baek kowt :)

ingin me w a r n a i hidupku kembali?

dye mao mewarnai idopku y mmg da sedia kelam neyh? mampo kah dye? ready kah ak? na try? ak ta na amek risiko> so juz let it be> even ak da ty ma mkcik n ma pkcik ta rasmi ak, n ak ta lupe gak ty dye pyerw bestie : 
eveyone said a same tink, dat boys is kind> n he will loyal to me> wat? can i believe it? shud i? ak da lupe ke everytink dat past in ma life? wa eva is> dat boy really kind> he believe me 100% padahal dye bawu kenal ak ta sampai two days? woow> he very trust me> :)
but, wat eva is, ma heart eweyz said dat he still luve his ex> u know dat : ma heart ewez rite :) so i dun want to ruin everything o to spoil anything :) 
i hope dat boys will do a rite things 4 itself> find and search 4 ur happiness> i'll pray 4 dat :) amiin :)

tengs K A W A N ?

yeaaa> really tengs to u dude:) psl kow clalo listen wen im in trouble:) but sowi dude ak ta penah share personal problem ak kan? ta taw why ak suke pendam? ak pown ta paam> but dude, im tink da main reasons is :
i know when ak story naty msty kow advice ak tok pk psl diri ak first:) rite? but, as usual> ak pasti n mesti letak kan diri ak as a second thing:) either im hepy o not> i dun care> as long as da others hepy? yup> dats i am:)


btw dude, tengs a lot gak psl kow ewez share prob gan ak? even kdg2 kow slalo kene bahan nan ak:) i know u still luv dat gal rite> well dude, past is past :) gal kan byk kat dunia neyh?


dude> act, tengs a lot coz sepanjang ak kat gopeng neyh> kow y clalo top-up an ak:) hehehe> ta abez2 ak paw kow:) ta pe2 kan ak da jnjy mao banje kow:) p ta taw bilerw> myb upcoming 10 years? i hope:)


n agy satoo tengs gak completekan omwek est ak y uat folio 2:) hehehe> u r so generous:) lucky whos get u:)

 
p/s : diz is dak y ewez help me:) even ak cuca o cenang:) da 3 years dude:) pshbtn to cangat i n d a h :)

suka aty ak la !

weyh< suka aty ak r na attitude cmne> ape kowunk kesah? pegi mati r. ak ta kaco idop kownk an> so berambus pat from ma life. suka ati ak r nak bajet camne, uat pe ak nak baek nan kow> ta sangap pown na kenal kownk la,boley pegi jalan ta? juz straight n dun eva stop in front me.


tolon r paam weyh ak bkn cam kowunk. kow ta kenal ak asal nak judge ak ikut pale kownk> lantak r> pe ak kesah, ak pon ta nak amek taw hal kownk> wat menyemak pale otak ak jep.


B A N G A N G !
ak blacklist kowunk>

so diz is me? :) ~

so diz is my face> > ? nerd rite? cuma tinggal pegang buku sajep:) first tyme ney amek pix pki spek? cam pelik sajep :) wat eva la> bkn clalo lowh ~ ~

spm candidates at my schOoL:)

ney la attitude dak2 sbpi gopeng sebelom dowg amek exm terbesar lam idop dowg> S P M<

nak release tension kowt?

maybe~ ~ btw, dowg sumerw ney cumeyl-cumeyl la. next year da ta dapat jupe la:(

i'll miz u guys.. khusus senior y rapat nan ak ~ N I L A M 4 ~ akn ku kenang sampy ak mati:)

naty ak windo kat makcik ak , kak echah y kini sedang hangat bersama akram?

hehehe> kak echah jangan maah:)

ak ta tahan laGi:(

ello, anybody? can u hear me? im really2 tired rite now>
seyesly, gosh~
ak da dapat deMam la plax:( cgt2 ta besh! adoi> cmne ney> ak ta suke?


sat g nak g dom ijumi- mau panadol lowh> relax moy, da na balek darh:) 3ari lagi> btw, klu ta complete majalah skul neyh ta dpt balek la plak>
adoy~
ak ta na xteNd, da la in one year ney boley dikire bape kali ak balek uma:( tolon ak:)
sangat2 ta sihat..
dengan kem+basket+sirat lagi> dabooshhh~ ~ ~ ~
camne ney>
semalam ak dpt topap free RM5.. hikhik.. tengs sangat2 sama 'mr C'> cayunk cama kamo la:)
eyt> ari ney akak ak S P M la plak>
do da bez ya sis? yakin boley?
next year ak plax>
insyaallah> amoy, yakin boley gak>
amiinnn...
so ak kene lawan demam ak la neyh? da la ak ta pack barang lagi:( barang ak da la gilew mangkuk tingkat punya melambak> aiyoo> cam nak dok sineyh 10 taon sajep:)
but, naty mom ak kate mom ak cuty> wah terharu ak 'cuty psl na tolon ak angkut barang2' ak balik uma:)
ibu mithali> mak sape:)
da na cuty neyh ramai membe da calling-calling ak tanya ape plan?
alamax geng, ak pon ta kompem agy plan masa cuty naty> tah r, coz dengar citerw naty kene g N9 la plax:( ak cangat2 malas> ak ingat nak lepak kat uma sajep.>hang out kerw>
kompem paren ak ta kaci> ank pompuan la katakan:) tapi naty cian kat akak ak tumpang uma kwn dye:( mesti ta selesa glerw dye na amek paper:( hemmM~ ~ ~

so onezly, ak da ta tahan neyh:( mao balek dom~ restkan pale otak ak neyh:) bilerw la keje menaip ak nak abes ney:( ? ? ?

exciteD meLanda diriku:)

dats it. its true> na taw story kew? ok like diz> ary too skul ak didatangi oleyh dak2 utp:) kire dak2 pandai la neyh:) ak agk xcited jupe nan dak2 pndai neyh. rasa kerdil pon aderw gak>
and ditakdirkan ak sato group gan abg peja, abg capix n kak eja:)
dowg baek sih> even mule2 dowg malu-malu kambing. lagi2 abg capix mntg2 r dye ex star> da ta taw cmna nak ckp nan gurlz kowt> tp major dak y macok utp neyh x-sbp, em..kira bestari r dak2 nyerw:)
group ak diberi nama hot stuff> start gan huruf 'H'> kami da buntu na kaci name perw> taruk jep la> asl bunyi dye sodapp:)


ney pix kegumbiraan :

start program BHMOC:)

hot stuff:)

ak tiut kan:)

cumeyl:)

dlm group:)

peace..>

time majlis penutupan:)

kepada sumerw y sekali nan ak time prog ney:) bez kan> even mule2 ak rase gila bapak pnt n malas cgt2 nak join prog y ak aggp cam cengal jerw mule2:)

so da terbukti im wrong:)

prog ney bez>

n da tinggalkan memori y indah bg ak>

windu gan akak+abg fasi ak:)

kak eja : kangen sama kamo> mam byk tikit psl kak eja keding cangat:)

abg peja : kangen gak gan style indie kamoo:) mood to jgn swing agy aw:)

abg capix : da ta malu2 da:) bagosx2~dun poget ole2 brunei ya dude:)

ak join basketball disini:)

jeng..jeng..caya ta? kompem ta kan? psl ak sendiri pon ta cya. hard to believe>
act, masa mula2 macok sini, ak pon buntu ta taw na join per, ta taw pe y ak ley join>
aderw la satu ary to> n.pengerusi bsket uat announce, dye kate=

perhatian, sape2 yang nak wakil skul lam basket sila turun training petang ney pada kol 5.30 petang.

camtu la dye ckp. and oleh kerana tyme too ak memang free ta taw na join pe, so ak pon rerajin kan diri turun training> bt, seyesly ak terkejut beruk dowh bila ak tengok major f5 yang turun> satu f4 pown ta nmpk batang idung. neyh y uat ak pelik> sgt2 pelik. da la tyme to sume usha ak cam ta puas aty jep. mentg2 la ak dak bawu>
bt ak lgsg ta amek pusing pon. uat dono jep> n ak lgsg ta expect y ak akn dpt wakil skul>
fyi, tula first tyme ak wakil sekola neyh n g match kat soksek:)
kenangan cgt> psl hy ak n aqil dak f4 n news y wakil skul> ta sgke y towg ley dpt> tapi syukur cgt>
n kat cana ak dpt kwn dr sbp y len> cam skul sultan muhamad jiwa,n ikupa. n cam2 lagi la>


$ agy sato, mase ney la ak rapat nan dak2 skul ak yang join basket neyh> sampai skunk towg still rapat> agknya kalu ak ta join mesti ak ta knl dowg> btw, dowg nice:)

 

ta paaM gan boyz >

boys is suck~ even me couldn't understand whats wrong with boys at here>
they doesn't respect gurlz! how could they do like that? doesn't they realize that their mom or sister is also a gurlz? whats wrong with them?omg..>i hate people like that! totally 100%!

yea..>there is a story>
satu ary too..ma pwen candid pix dak2 laki kelas **, ta de niat len.juz saje nk mencapub muke dowg lam blog *****. ye la at least kewujudan dye dihargai. but ade sekumpulan makhluk tuhan yang bangang ney, ak ta taw mane dowg blaja n cegu mane y aja dowg> dowg grab cam y ma pwen tgh pengang tu. n suddenly dye ta na lepaskan pergi> n ma pwen sempat menyelamatkan memory card itu. tapi malang coz cam 2 mangkuk ayun 2 dapat. na taw pe dowg uat?
dowg hempas kowt cam 2? ape dowg igt hrga dye 10 sen? 20 sen? sesuka hati bpk dowg jep uat ta guna otak. ape kowg igt ***** sangap sangat kerw nak amek pix kowg? dun pasan la weyh> kalo hensem ta pe gak> kalu stakat muke cm kowg kat tepi jln pon melambak dowh! seriously, ak cgt2 ta paam> 


#ak kesal cgt gan attitude b*r** dowg> yela psl major dowg neyh ilmu ***** lagi tinggi dari ktowg...
but prangai yang cam **** s**** tu uat ak meluat jep mghadap muke kowg> 


even ma pwen yang prangai cam haram jadah pon respect gurl nape tak kowg yang ilmu tinggi neyh?
kowg ptot macok kelas sivik la weyh>
ta layak r kowg dih******i>
bole pegi jalan> ak ta menyesal pon kalu ta knl kowg>

if u take my heart~soko

You can take my heart for a walk on the beach
You can take my heart for a little trip
You can take my heart very close to your heart
You can take my heart forever if you like

But not every heart belongs to any other
You and I
You and I are meant to be
I'm the one for you, You're the one for me
You love me as much as I do
When you look at me and we're skin to skin
I want you so
Please come in
And you love me more and more
And my love grows up with you
And you kiss me more and more
And I kiss you, too
And I kiss you, too

If I take your heart, I will cherish it every day
If I take your heart, I will heal these old wounds
If I take your heart, it's to make it happy
If I take your heart, it's forever close to mine

But not every heart belongs to any other
You and I
You and I are meant to be
I'm the one for you, You're the one for me
You love me as much as I do
When you look at me and we're skin to skin
I want you so
Please come in
And you love me more and more
And my love grows up with you
And you kiss me more and more
And I kiss you, too
And I kiss you, too

(Violin solo! )

I don't care, I don't care
If I'm again carried away
If you swear, if you swear
To give me your heart in return

I don't care, I don't care
If I'm again carried away
If you swear, if you swear
To give me your heart in return
To give me your heart in return

Love make me crazee:)..>

i wish 4 what? no matter what>

ak ta wish kat sape2 pown...

i wish i will found my mr rite,

but not now>

maybe one day..

family comes first,

n second of coz MY RESULTS!

Life, hope it sweet:) >...

sepanjang ak di bumi gopeng neyh, ak mngaku byk glerw y ak da rase>

ckp jerw, masam, masin, pahit, manis..sumerw aderw la> but itu la y uat ak sedar.

y sumtimes ak kena bgantung kat diri ak sendiri> only me> bkn org lain..

kata orang2 tua= kawan ketawa ramai tapi kawan menangis tak derw> mybe tol kowt>

coz impossible kawan kiterw na berkepit nan kiterw 24 hours, rite?
no matter what> dat is life>
i must face it either if i like or not..
coz theres is no choice 4 me>>
nati ak story masam masin ak kat cineyh>
ak cuberw memaniskan kehidupan ak kt cineyh semanis yang boley>

but not sume y kiterw harap akn jd kyataan rite?

but aderw situasi y uat ak kecewa habis! surely, coz it is bitter!

n i hope ak xkan merasai nya lagi di kehidupan ak yang akn datang!

H O S T E L= bkn impian ak tok dok di cineyh>

coz ak tgolong dalam golongan 'anak manja'>

so, im juz redha,>

n juz hope next year will be more better dan diz year:)

amiin..............>

good bye forM 4?:(

sangat2 ta sangka ak da nak abez f4? omg! like a dream? ak ta ready agy na spm next year>>
gosh!it is real? feel like time running so fast:( im not ready! serious>
how can i face it next year?
it juz too early>
ak pown rase cedeyh gak coz senior ak da na blah>
even aderw y ak ta rpt. but dowg nice! seyes ta tipoo>
mom, cmne neyh, results ku drop!
dad, help ur daughter plez!
camne neyh?
ak buntu neyh:(
help plez>>


so oleh sebab stress kowt, ak uat benda y cam haram jadah la plax?
huhu>da ta taw na uat perw :( so scared nak spm neyh!