Silent

People ask her so many things. Some want to get close to her, some want to be her friend. She put a barrier. Where she want to live her life alone for a while. People think she is strong. The truth is, she was just pretending. Pretend to be strong as a concrete. Don't you think she was struggle for quite so long? She find out there is no reason to angry nor to avenge nor to insult nor to talk negative. What is done, then its done. She have no power to control people or to force people to listen to her. 

One day, people ask her.

" Who are you. You are nobody now. It's none of your business. "

She was shocked. She WAS a somebody before. She never expecting for such a cruel words comes from his mouth. 

Yes, she was nobody now. She just an idiot that still want to advice and to support him in whatever that his do. And people ask her. 

" Why you did this. Giving up, love yourself more. "

And then she answer, " I wish I could. "

She just being nice. But people insult her for being cheap. Still, she can smile broadly and pretend that nothing is happen. What makes she disappointed the most is when she have no back-up during that time. He let she being insulted. He has no intention to defend her. She wonder after all this while, how much her value in his eyes. Don't you at least feel pity on her.

She comfort herself and try to gain a strength. 

And now she knows all the reasons. And she know why you are doing that.

" Don't you feel angry? I am useless. "

" Look at my eyes. Who am I to judge you. I have no power to judge you. Go change yourself. Be better. "

" Why you are being so kind to me? "

" I am always be kind. I have no reason though especially to someone who is really has a meaning to me. "

She believes that each of us is a sinful person. It's good if you got your own 'Nur' .

And now people ask her.

" Hey girl. Start over with a new person. Why don't you try it out? "

  She smiled and remain silent.

Why don't you figure her heart out?

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