" Pick the one that loves you more "

I have been blogging since my secondary school. I could not remember what was the url for my first blog. However, I post too many heartbroken posts for these couple years. Many of my friends ws'ed, dm'ed, asking if I was okay or not. Some may give advice about the relationship, love or anything related to human emotion. I have a lot of boyfriend-best-friend, that is fortunate since I could use them to ask about a man's behavior. Here, I will be sharing with you guys, what are the questions and the answers that I used to wonder. (but I will share my ambiguity with my girlfriend --- because that is how we judge a man)

Me - Girlfriend

Me: If a man says he loves a girl, why he want to cheat?

Friend: If a man loves you, he won't cheat on you. No matter what is the reason. Lies are lies, big or small it still a lie. 

M: Do you think I am a demanding girl?

F: You are not demanding, you did not ask your boyfriend something he can't afford don't you? I am noticing all your kinds of stuff, you don't like no branded stuff, I am sure you buy all that junk things using your own money. Just like how you are buying stuff, you also want the best in relationships. That is why you are wondering what is your fault when your relationships are tearing apart. It is not something that you did not want to commit, but you are so confused on how to make people stay. True is, don't do that. If he loves you, he will accept the way you are. Different people have a different way of expressing love. 

M: Am I stupid enough for loving someone who used to hurt me?

F: I completely understand the feeling to love someone, while deep down in your heart, you still feel the ache. That is why love makes people look stupid. No, you are not stupid, he is the one. 

M: Should I pick someone who is chasing my love rather than I am chasing people to accept my love?   

F: Somehow, you need to take a break. And I know you noticed someone else, gives their best to win your heart. But the heart wants what it wants right? Pick the one that loves you more. Because one day, he the one that will lead you, and if his love for you was not strong enough, I am afraid if his love can be easily stolen by the other person. You know it hurts right? Some other girl stealing your man, mintak Jauh la weh. We are matured enough to think all of this. Think, whatever it is please knows that you got my back.

Me-Boy-friend (short conv)

M: Do you have girl-friends who like to go to party or club?

F: Yes, I have some.

M: Do you proud to have a friend like that?

F: No, why should I? I have one friend (a girl) who like go partying, clubbing, dress up like we don't have enough clothes. You imagined my parents ask ' Is that your friend? ' Hell no.

M: Oh I thought you want to say that thing is normal nowadays. really thought you want me to be open-minded.

F: Open minded? Of course not. Things like this, you don't have to be too open-minded or being too liberal. Perempuan zaman sekarang, susah nak cari yang baik. Memang-lah iman tu berbolak-balik. Tapi kalau kau tak suka, itu kau punya stand. Kau tak perlu nak jadi terlampau acceptance. Itu prinsip kau. Benda-benda baik buruk ni, kau tak perlu 4 flat pon. Tahu dah benda tak okay, jauhi je lah. Hidup ni simple je.

M: Some might says, we don't know what they have been through?

F: Tahu ke tak tahu ke, itu jalan dorang pilih. Manusia kan ada akal, boleh fikir mcm mana nak bawak haluan hidup. Kenapa? kau nak tolong ubah dunia ke. Itu pon kalau kau tak terjebak, iman kalau senipis kulit bawang, confirm lah dengan kau-kau hanyut sekali. 

Di manakah akal fikiran yang diberikan Allah s.w.t jika anda tidak menggunakannya? --Sajjat, 2017

Cuma aku nak pesan, lelaki ni banyak jenis nya, banyak perangai nya. Kalau kau dah dapat yang baik, kau jaga. Lelaki yang betul sayang kau, kalau dia sayang memang sayang habis.