" Pick the one that loves you more "

I have been blogging since my secondary school. I could not remember what was the url for my first blog. However, I post too many heartbroken posts for these couple years. Many of my friends ws'ed, dm'ed, asking if I was okay or not. Some may give advice about the relationship, love or anything related to human emotion. I have a lot of boyfriend-best-friend, that is fortunate since I could use them to ask about a man's behavior. Here, I will be sharing with you guys, what are the questions and the answers that I used to wonder. (but I will share my ambiguity with my girlfriend --- because that is how we judge a man)

Me - Girlfriend

Me: If a man says he loves a girl, why he want to cheat?

Friend: If a man loves you, he won't cheat on you. No matter what is the reason. Lies are lies, big or small it still a lie. 

M: Do you think I am a demanding girl?

F: You are not demanding, you did not ask your boyfriend something he can't afford don't you? I am noticing all your kinds of stuff, you don't like no branded stuff, I am sure you buy all that junk things using your own money. Just like how you are buying stuff, you also want the best in relationships. That is why you are wondering what is your fault when your relationships are tearing apart. It is not something that you did not want to commit, but you are so confused on how to make people stay. True is, don't do that. If he loves you, he will accept the way you are. Different people have a different way of expressing love. 

M: Am I stupid enough for loving someone who used to hurt me?

F: I completely understand the feeling to love someone, while deep down in your heart, you still feel the ache. That is why love makes people look stupid. No, you are not stupid, he is the one. 

M: Should I pick someone who is chasing my love rather than I am chasing people to accept my love?   

F: Somehow, you need to take a break. And I know you noticed someone else, gives their best to win your heart. But the heart wants what it wants right? Pick the one that loves you more. Because one day, he the one that will lead you, and if his love for you was not strong enough, I am afraid if his love can be easily stolen by the other person. You know it hurts right? Some other girl stealing your man, mintak Jauh la weh. We are matured enough to think all of this. Think, whatever it is please knows that you got my back.

Me-Boy-friend (short conv)

M: Do you have girl-friends who like to go to party or club?

F: Yes, I have some.

M: Do you proud to have a friend like that?

F: No, why should I? I have one friend (a girl) who like go partying, clubbing, dress up like we don't have enough clothes. You imagined my parents ask ' Is that your friend? ' Hell no.

M: Oh I thought you want to say that thing is normal nowadays. really thought you want me to be open-minded.

F: Open minded? Of course not. Things like this, you don't have to be too open-minded or being too liberal. Perempuan zaman sekarang, susah nak cari yang baik. Memang-lah iman tu berbolak-balik. Tapi kalau kau tak suka, itu kau punya stand. Kau tak perlu nak jadi terlampau acceptance. Itu prinsip kau. Benda-benda baik buruk ni, kau tak perlu 4 flat pon. Tahu dah benda tak okay, jauhi je lah. Hidup ni simple je.

M: Some might says, we don't know what they have been through?

F: Tahu ke tak tahu ke, itu jalan dorang pilih. Manusia kan ada akal, boleh fikir mcm mana nak bawak haluan hidup. Kenapa? kau nak tolong ubah dunia ke. Itu pon kalau kau tak terjebak, iman kalau senipis kulit bawang, confirm lah dengan kau-kau hanyut sekali. 

Di manakah akal fikiran yang diberikan Allah s.w.t jika anda tidak menggunakannya? --Sajjat, 2017

Cuma aku nak pesan, lelaki ni banyak jenis nya, banyak perangai nya. Kalau kau dah dapat yang baik, kau jaga. Lelaki yang betul sayang kau, kalau dia sayang memang sayang habis. 

Convocation Day !

It's my second time of graduation. This time it is for my Master Degree. I did it, I made it! Even though I did not manage to get 3.75 and above, but I am glad because I never get a pointer of 3.5 and below. Of course, I am proud of myself because I also did a part-time job during my full-time Master degree. Let just enjoy the pictures yea -->

Cita-cita nak pakaikan orang istimewa macam ni, tapi . . . 

Gambar boyfriend? Kahkah, mimpi la lu.

Your love story is like a 'Drama Tv'

It was a one fine evening when suddenly my sister talked about my love story. She said she was thinking about my story while she ironing her work clothes. 

" I was thinking what made you are so busy till your boyfriend finds the other girl to replace you. "

I said, nahhh it really doesn't matter if people do not understand me or my situation. But then, she figured out by herself.

" I know why you said you are so busy back then, during your study till you neglect your boyfriend. It is very unfortunate for him, who do not try to understand your situation nor your struggle. I figured out. You are just too busy to prove to your family, to give us a good result of yours. You are struggling to score in every examination, to make sure you can deliver a First Class Degree to your family. While you are trying so hard to prove it, your boyfriend who did not understand your struggle and hardship so he chooses to pick other girls instead of you. He left you. It must be sad to be you. Apart needs to struggle in your study, now you need to struggle in your emotion. I remembered you cry hard while we are on the phone. Your love story is like a Drama Tv. "

I couldn't ask more, only someone who respects me and appreciate my presence. It would be nice if someone reminds me my worth and be afraid to lose me. 

Unusual

I watched a lot of Malay movies, dramas, short films, or even novels. I remembered one quote saying like this " Perempuan, silap orang mudah saja dia perasan. Silap dia, dia tak sedar pon. " 

Here it is, how about if it was a man who behaved like that instead of a woman? Yeah, I always wonder, if a man who made a mistake, they can just say " I am sorry. " And things going back to normal. Yes, maybe it is because of the woman behaviour, they can forgive someone they love easily. But, if a woman made a mistake and say "I am sorry. " You left that woman hanging like she made a big mistake.

I personally think it was okay if a man wants to sulk or to advise or to what so ever. But please don't forget, if compared to your mistakes, her mistake only 1% of your mistakes. Don't make things complicated. She is sorry, she has apologized, she is regretted. If she can forgive you for your big mistakes, why wouldn't you forgive her for her small mistakes? 

Reflect - back - how - you - treat - her. 

Fair enough? 

I. don't. think. so.